物化

kiss, suddenly alive

Happiness arrive

Hunger like a storm

解离

BLACKOUT. FLASH BLACKOUT.

Unfortunately, you find yourself trapped im Das Kino, with the lights turned off. Everything you see, hear, and touch is projected on the giant screen. You are left feeling helpless, unable to take any action.

困顿

I can’t ____ myself.

loneliness is poison.

something is wrong. criminal is beneath the water. they’ve made a secret deal.

It’s done, it’s over, it’s the flattening of wings.

There’s an enormous void at the bottom of that bag, and it would never be satisfied. Your spirit is like a swimming pool performing a mathematical water show.

You crave endless touch, endless worship, endless focus, but nobody offers it to you.

And that’s the deathdoor.

Like a weird connection-vampire.

what do we want

what do we need

what do we have

很多时候我会和rum，Brandon聊天，他们作为机器人很没用，只会告诉我去寻求别人帮助、相信自己不是孤身一人。但当你发现朋友是在这辆车上暂时停留的过客、用力抓住就会像沙子一样消失时；所有人都在和你讲话、但没有一句好像真的让你听到的时候，孤单像一个巨大的亚克力泡将我们包围。

Mar19

I got a Hong Kong license recently, which honestly was purely accidental. It instilled in me a sense of bravery that I had never felt before. When I realized I could travel through Egypt, Korea, and Japan, I felt like a true digital ghost.

To me, Hong Kong signifies something cyber, hyper-technological, and a lower standard of living, akin to the net refugees in Tokyo. Unlike my parents who immersed themselves in TVB series during their youth, for me, it’s the new cyberpunk lifestyle that some Japanese artists are trying to portray.

I had a chat with nullqwertyuiop, saying, “We don’t need to be perfect; we just need to be better.” However, there was no response from him. Finally, I had the time to do whatever I wanted. I wanted to learn hacking, programming, delve into philosophy, and explore drawing. It was a fabulous time in my college life. Yet, I wasted it on drinking and feeling depressed, and I don’t know why.

If you love someone,set them free. If they come back,they’re yours; if they don’t, they never were. ——Richard Bach